Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Journaling...Happy Unhappy Self

I have some conflicting feelings I guess.
I'm happy with my life, but unhappy with myself.
I like being busy, but I am too busy right now.
I want to sit and relax, but I can't sit still.
I am a morning person, but I am tired when my alarm goes off.
I am shy, but I am spilling my guts...
What's up with me?

Oh, I know.

I love birthdays, but my big one is coming.
I bet that's it!

Rats. That's not good. No, that can't be good.

Oh well, can't change it.  Better be glad about it.

Okay, how's this:
I don't want to get old, but I am grateful that I am able to grow older.
Hmmmm,  that seems to fit.
Okay, I'll be better now.

I think.


Marilyn said...

Yes good way to think of it.
Happy birthday for when it is your birthday ;-)

Diana Trout {Nan.DT@verizon.net} said...

I love this post. And I know exactly how you feel. I am grateful to be growing older. My perspective is much wider. No troubles here with being (gulp) 54.
Thanks for comments on my blog! I love to hear from you.

Ophelia said...

Gosh!!! Are you in my head!!!

Createology said...

Embrace and celebrate your upcoming birthday. After all it is only a number. What is important is how we feel and act. Enjoy every day Miss Paper Pumpkin. Love your journal pages...

Lancerika said...

Soon it will pass...
is just the depths of
winter making you *Blue*
Aging gracefully is
the way to go!
You are going to
celebrate your *Big Day*
in a *Big Way*
CHEERS my deer firefly
LoVE and Kisses***
on January 11-11

thekathrynwheel said...

Aha! A bundle of contradictions! I think a lot of us will know exactly how you are feeling!

Nancy said...

Enjoy your birthday sweet girl; the best is yet to come.......
Things may droop and sag alittle but ah the freedom of aging.....

Big old hugs on your Birthday....

lori vliegen said...

ahhhh, yes.....the "big one".......life never felt so good, huh?!! you get younger every day, girlfriend!! xoxo, :))

Sam said...

I like your journal page! Enjoy your birthday x

Anonymous said...

My sister in law said to me recently, that, we spend more years of our lives growing old, than we do being young. ♥ Growing into our own skin is what life is all about. :) You will be beautiful, beyond the big one my friend, not to worry...

Cat said...

OMGosh, I am wondering which big one you are talking about!!! Judging from your adorable picture it must be a few hills back from my last big one!
Whichever hill you are getting to the top of - I'm sure it will have a beautiful view!
XO, Cat

Anonymous said...

i was told by my gym instructor the other day that the reason i am not seeing results is because i am growing old. growing old?!!! i am 36, thank you very much, and that is NOT old! talk about a slap on the face!

Jennifer Richardson said...

You aren't getting old, friend.
I can tell that all the way from here.
I have a strong, strong feeling
you're getting poised and ready
to see and savor the best days yet.
The best YEARS yet!
Happy birthday, beautiful you.

taylor said...

I know what you mean. I am a January birthday too. Two days until I may want to hide. We shall see. I guess I am lucky to have school that day so I can be distracted. Hope you have a good one.