Hopefully Healing...

End of March.

91 days of 2012 and I am not impressed. By me.

With shaking limbs and

loss of muscle strength,

I want,

no, I need,

for this to end.

So, when we write and journal,

do we write to remember, or do we write to forget?

To let go? Or keep?

Like history, to not repeat?

~k

Journal Therapy

 After work, I went straight into my Creative Space.

Frustration and irritation and dumb rules, be gone.

The cool feel of paper

the stickiness of glue

the grunge of an old brush

the freshness of a new supply

the richness of color

the scent of a marker

Fast fingers

no more thinking.

I feel better.

Let it all out.

breathe.

be.

~k

Journal Layers

This started out with

the beige and aqua,

painted on with a credit card,

then the circles were splatted on.

New journaling tapes were stuck on,

yum,

then

tiny grid background stamped in gray.

Next,

black stamped petals.

It's in a different place,

my sketchbook.

I think I like it too much yet to write on it.

Hmmmmm.

Something will come to my pen

soon.

One day at a time.

~k

Journal Page

Wishing you days filled

with wonder and new

learning...

Whatever kind it might be.

Is there anything new

you want to do?

~k

Journal Page. Create!

I used a brown colored pencil

with a stencil to make the background squares...

like a garden trellis

to hold my growing hopes.

Some aqua fabric love from my PaperPumpkin.etsy shop

grows along the left side of this journal page.

*

I enjoyed playing with words...

criss-crossing them.

The healing power of just creating

is such a great gift!

Create!

Create!

It's not what you create,

it's that you do create!

Just do it.

~k

Unedited Spring Joy

I have loved pussy willows since I was a little girl.

New season.

New beginnings.

My heart swells with hope and joy and love.

I send this out into the universe

and I wish for you to feel it...

~k

Unfinished...

This is what I was working on yesterday afternoon.

when the sky looked beautiful out my windows.

I wasn't feeling well, but this made me happy.

And this is where I struggle with what to write.

I don't want to sound mellow-dramatic,

but if this helps someone out there who is sensitive and allergic,

perhaps a loved one, that will be a good thing.

For those of who know me here, you know I haven't felt well

in quite a while. Breathing has been difficult

and by the time I found this little scrap, "inhale. exhale.", I was marveling

at how I found the perfect detail to add to my journal spread.

inhale. exhale.

Sounds so easy, but was growing so hard all of a sudden.

I glued it on...then felt all of my faculties leaving...

tissue paper body... 

...my lungs didn't work like I wanted,

scuba tanks by mistake filled with water, rather than air. 

My fingers turning purple.

my eyes...

twitching in my shoulders...

I was going unconscious.

epi-pen shot into thigh.

911.

sirens.

a mask filled with oxygen.

Anaphyllacix.

Antibiotics turned enemy.

If you have a sensitive loved one,

ask them if their epi-pen is current.

Mine expired, (from a mango allergy)

but it worked.

Breathe.

unfinished...

~k

Journal Page

Just felt the need to get a little messy

and create something.

Sure hope you're enjoying your weekend!

~k

A Little Blue...

The spread, in my journal:

New page (left)                 Older page (right)

Battling bronchitis still,

home again today,

but finally got antibiotics

and ugh steroids,

for it and the sinus/ear infections.

The only way to go is UP now...

As always, thanks for looking.

I appreciate you.

~k

Journal Page

I am a bit miserable today as I am home from work, sick.

Tomorrow should be better-

and I am correcting papers as I sit around,

but I'd rather be energetic and rosy, you know?

On the bright side,

it is uncharacteristically warm out

and so

the windows are open!

Germs, be gone!

~k

Watercolor Learning

I have wanted, for the longest time, to learn how to paint with watercolors. I finally took the scary-for-me leap. I bought a really inexpensive set, a couple of brushes, and now a course!

I have only begun to practice with supplies, but have learned a bit about what I don't like, for instance, this paper, with or without gesso. I won't experiment in this journal anymore, but will use the watercolor paper pad that I got for my birthday. I also learned that I think I will like watercolor painting and it may not be as scary as I thought...maybe.

Thanks for visiting and putting up with my frightening experiments. I love your comments.  ~k

Saturday Sketch

Graphite pencils 4B, 3H

Maybe my Saturdays will turn into sketching days.

Thanks for looking.

Hope you're enjoying your weekend

and maybe getting a glimpse of the Full Moon.

Turn your clocks ahead an hour tonight!

~k

Simple Pleasures

...a gift, for me

{big smile}

What made you smile today?

~kz

Just Wondering

Hope your thoughts are

in a good place for you

today.

~k

My Finished Drawing

I put the finished sketch into Picnik to take out the color.

Here's what it really looks like, in my journal.

Thank you for visiting!

~k

Sketched Again

I used to draw and sketch every single day

when I was really young...for hours.

I haven't done much in years.

Sometimes I think about it.

Lately I've thought about it more.

Then, this morning, still in my jammies, I picked up my journal

and a pencil and just started.

I had seen a face in a fashion magazine a while back.

It was angular and very striking.

She had dark eyes and dark, really tousled, short hair.

I loved the photograph.

I don't like that I spontaneously

did a face on this particular painted background, but...so be it.

It feels fun. Again.

Maybe I will add more pencil strokes later today

...when I get out of my pj's.

Have a lovely, lazy Saturday!

~k