Thursday, July 15, 2010

Yesterday Was Wednesday

I have to confess that I wasn't at my best yesterday, at all. For at least midday anyway. I had to call on lots of patience, strength, faith and prayer to not feel sorry for myself. And now I feel guilty.







I did much better in the evening because Michael was lying in the grass next to Ellie who was digging and playing. The gentle music of Van Morrison was playing. There was a breeze. I had a nice healthy supper, outside. Fat blueberries were waiting for me. I got rid of some of my self-indulgent shame...and I will count my blessings today and be stronger for it, I promise.



~Kath

11 comments:

Gina Lee Kim said...

I'm sending you a virtual-bloggy hug right now. I accept you just the way you are. You are beautiful & perfect! I too struggle with some mighty self-rejecting comments in my head....oh you don't want to know!!!
Then, it passes.
Thank God.

Martha Lever said...

Hi Kath,
Well something must have been in the air because I had an unfortunate day yesterday also with some guilt and self-bashing. It's a long story ---but thanks for your post and I was not the only one. I am somewhat better today. I love your journal pages.

daisyfleur said...

Fresh air & relaxtion can be a wondeful cure. So pleased you are happier now and I love the pink & green combo.

Ophelia said...

I too was "off" yesterday...seems to be a few days! Your pages are gorgeous!

Createology said...

Your journal pages are beautiful. I think they are helping you express your feelings and work through them. Thankful you are having a better day today. Blessings...

Suziescards.etsy.com said...

Your journal pages are inspiring.
I want to start such a journal, keep putting it off as I don't know where or how to start.
You continue to inspire me!
Hope you're feeling better.

DancingMooney ♥ said...

Oh Kathy! We all have our days love, nothing to feel guilty about! ♥

There is a bumper sticker I see around town here every now and then, and it says...

Bark Less, Wag More.
:D

Jennifer Richardson said...

I love your beautiful, honest heart. Sending you big hope for gentler days to come. You are in strong, generous hands. There is only love tenderly hovering over you. There IS no shame on you....only love. With you, Jennifer

Marilyn said...

It's wonderful how you can gather your strength when in pain. Your journal is lovely and i loved the description of being outdoors with your family.

Erin Butson said...

I love your journal pages. Go easy on yourself. we all have our days. today was mine:)

Kolleen said...

i recently came to a place of trying not to feel guilt on those days i want to have a pity party. i find if i let myself feel those feelings (that all have a beginning, middle and an end)....that i seem to move through it quicker than fighting it. did that make sense???
i try to surround myself with the little things that bring me comfort....yummy cup of coffee, music, one of my "go to " movies, etc...
i love your journal pages!!!
sending you a hug and a whisper that "it's okay" to have those days!!

xxoo
k